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The ultimate STAND-UP COMEDY CHALLENGE

this day is indeed a series of unfortunate events…

i had a very difficult exam on bonds and investments…

got left alone in the house while the rest of my family members went to a vacation…

and worst of all…

i lost my phone in broad daylight!!!

it’s so dissappointing because i didn’t get robbed nor was it snatched from me. i was totally unaware of its loss and i can’t accept that it’s really gone. it’s a piece of hardware that contains everything that i have treasured ever since. pictures, messages, important notes and dates or meetings. somehow it made me realize that all these years my whole life and all of my treasured memories are confined in a small mobile phone and after i lost it i felt that i could never be complete again. it contained a part of me, people who became part of my life, moments that ive cherished, and things that tell who micha really is and now its gone!! sad to say, hard to admit… i lost my phone and i don’t know how.

nkakainis pa… i recently loaded it with P300 and it had my new globe sim card in it with a P50 unlimitxt. damn! that globe sim card was something i have personally negotiated with my parents (they wouldn’t allow me to have one because they believe in aptronizing just one network for our family). that globe sim card was something i was overjoyed to have because finally people will text me and reply to my messages but no!! the day right after i sent messages to people telling them of my new no. my whole unit and all just disappeared like magic. i thought today i would be sending email messages about my new cel no. but i didn’t realize that i would be sending them notices that my phone got lost!! shoots!! just the night before people are welcoming me to the world of globe and now i am sufferring and in grief of a terrible mishap. it’s my fault somehow but i just can’t admit it. it’s hard. i don’t care if i have a phone or not, i just want to have those messages, memories, captured moments and contacts back. grabeh!! talaga lang ah, i usually go home late at night and alone but no, my phone never got lost nor stolen but today… ang aga-aga pa, ang taas-taaas ng sikat ng araw, what a great day to start it right but somehow someone never fails to mess it up!! nakakainis!! i can’t imagine how old i am yet how careless i could be… i can’t imagine how much i have broken the trust of my parents and aunt who gave me my phone… nakakainis… fears start to overwhelm me and i can’t help but feel sad… pano ba naman, there’s nothing left for me to do… what’s gone is gone… somehow i was never to able to treasure the thing that contains my most priceless possessions. it’s a realization… and a learning i seem to never learn. it’s the first time i lost my cellphone but it was not the first time i lost something. grrr….

somehow i want to be the wind…

silent and subtle…

you may not feel it…

you may not see it…

but you know it exists somehow you just can’t tell if it’s there…

i want to be the wind and throw a tornado when angry…

i want to be the wind and hug you with a gentle breeze…

i want to be the wind so that when you need me…

i’ll just blow my cares and let you know i have always been here for you…

somehow you just never knew.. coz i am the wind, the negligible wind…

when it’s there you pay no attention,

but when you can’t feel its comfort you long for its soft caress…

i want to be the wind… the wind. so i can always be with you, forever…

even if i have to be the silent and subtle wind.

then you left without even saying that you’re leaving

i was hurt and it really won’t be easy to forget yesterday

oh i pray that you would stay

but then you’re gone feeling oh so far away

i was afraid this time would come

i wasn’t prepared to face this kind of burden from within

i must learn to live my life without you

maybe i’ll just dream of you tonight

and if into my dream you’d come and touch me once again

i’ll just keep on dreaming till my heartaches end…..

nakakainis na gusto kita pero ayaw ko. nakakainis na gusto kong magalit sayo pero hindi ko magawa. nakakainis na gusto kitang makasama pero hindi lang talaga pwede. nakakainis na gustong kong wag kang pansinin pero hindi ko matiis. nakakainis na nandito lang ako parati para sayo. nakakainis na iniisip kong makakausap lang kita dahil kailangan mo ko. nakakainis na gusto kitang kalimutan pero hindi ko kaya. nakakainis na gusto pa rin kita kahit ang dami ko nang nakitang hindi ko gusto sayo. nakakainis na gusto kitang alagaan pero marami nang nag-aalaga sayo. nakakainis na gustong kong mainis sa iba ng dahil sayo. nakakainis na kahit sabihin kong ayaw ko sayo ay lalo lang akong naiinis dahil mas lalo lang kitang nagugustuhan. nakakainis na kahit naiinis ako sayo makita lang kita masaya na ulit ako. hay… nakakainis!!

I am not asking you to say “I love you”; it’s difficult. I don’t want to hear you say “sorry”, I don’t need it. You don’t to have to say “I miss you”, coz I know you don’t. You don’t have to say a word, you just have to smile and I’ll know I’ve pleased you. I am not asking you for anything because what I want from you is not asked but given willingly and sincerely.

Tinutulungan kita pag may kailangan ka. Minsan hindi mo nga alam na tinutulungan pala kita coz I don’t have to let you know that at the back of my mind, I’m thinking of you. Minsan I really go out of my way just to make sure na matulungan kita and you’ll think it’s completely ok. This is why you don’t have to say “sorry”. Bakit may kasalanan k b? Why do people say sorry, it’s because they did something wrong. But in my case you didn’t do anything wrong, because I did what I can do willingly while knowing that it comes with consequences. I believe that if I really want to be of help I just have to do it (pero syempre naman I don’t want to help tapos mas nakagulo pa ako, alam ko naman yon).

I am not looking for recognition what I want is sana kahit minsan naaappreciate mo naman. Siguro hindi mo un maaalala pero ako hindi ko rin naman un makakalimutan. Masaya na akong makita na napasaya kita and I was able to help you carry your burdens. Na sa isang libo’t isang daang beses kita natulungan; isang beses pa lang akong humingi ng tulong sa’yo… pinaghintay mo pa ako; tatlo o limang beses ka pa lang nagpasalamat, ung isa akala ko makakalimutan mo pa, ung dalawa miscol, ano un? Sana lang marealize mo how much appreciation means for a person. THANK YOU lang un. Two words and yet it means so much, much more than saying I LOVE YOU. More stress relieving than saying IM SORRY. More thoughtful than saying I MISS YOU. Piso lang un…. PISO!!! It’s a priceless expression that won’t even cost you much but would give great happiness lalo na kung sasabihin mo personally. Again let me tell you, it’s not important that you get your message passed but that your message is able to touch and show some concern.

Kaya naman I would like to say THANK YOU.

for what? alam nyo na un…

Last Friday, nagpahula kami sa AEC. The initial plan was “regression” ung matutulog ka or you’ll hypnotized then in your dream you’ll travel back in time and witness for yourself your own past life kaso maingay daw sa BA kaya ayun hindi natuloy, nag tarot card-reading na lang. ok lang naman.

Actually I never really believed in fortune telling kahit na sabihin nating nagbabasa ako ng horoscope and sometimes feeling ko naman totoo, pero this time sobrang creepy. Habang sinasabi na niya ung mga nakikita nya sa cards ko naku, I got scared!! Imagine this person doesn’t know me at all, not a bit, and yet she seems to be telling me justifiable truth about myself. Macoconvince ka talaga that your past explains why you are like this right now, and sinasabi niya rin ung mga things that you’ve never disclosed to anyone but is true. Hindi siya tulad nung mga psychology tests or personality tests. Ewan ko!!

Sa past life ko daw isa akong female homebody, actually a housewife. Ngayon, oh no.. hindi mo ko pwedeng ikulong sa bahay. Even when I was still younger lagi akong nasa labas ng bahay, hindi ko kayang mabuhay sa loob ng bahay forever. Hindi rin ako ung tipong magsisilbi sa bahay, although I do my chores and cook or set/fix the table from time to time, madalang naman un. I feel more free-spirited right now than what she says I was before. Eto pa, nabuhay daw ako sa panahong 1950’s-1970’s and to be specific namatay ako ng 1976. imagine, I died at the age of 26??!! Ang young!! Could this possibly explain my childish nature? In this new life I don’t want to die young… gusto ko kung mamamatay ako ano na ako… uhm… at least 90 years old tapos natravel ko na ung buong mundo and naexplore ko na ung mga bagay na ive never tried before. Sana by then I have conquered all my fears and have been contented with my whole life.

Sabi rin niya that in the past I had trouble having a child. Isa lang daw naging anak ko tapos namatay pa. how sad… hindi ko man lang napalaki ung bata tapos nawala na… nakakainis.. gusto ko sana I could grow old with my kids, as in enjoy them.. take note kids ah.. gusto ko nga 3-4 children eh…. Kaya siguro malapit talaga ako sa mga bata… sabi rin nya na because of that experience I might be cranky and meticulous, almost depressed pag nagbuntis daw ako… oh no!! ayoko nga, dapat maging masaya ako para maganda ung anak ko… its just but normal to be meticulous pero cranky… hmmm… I don’t want to be like that!! NEVER!!

She also told me that I have strong attachments and loyalties to my family and friends. Goal ko daw is to uplift my immediate family, and having a boyfriend I guess would be out of the question. It’s true. I really have strong affiliations with my friends and family. Sila yung top 2 groups that I wouldn’t sacrifice nor exchange for any rewards in this life. Sabi nga niya sa akin I should not be afraid to leave my friends behind or to let go if any of them should leave me. Sabi pa niya wag ko daw pagpilitan ung relationships na hindi ko na kayang isave. Wag ko daw pakialaman ang buhay ng may buhay. Hmmm… ano kayang ibig nyang sabihin dun? Well, for that part I really don’t realize it yet kasi makialam sa buhay ng may buhay… hindi naman ako ganon eh… I let people come to me and I listen, hindi naman yata ako ung tipong nosy and all?? But if I would be, please just tell me to step aside, and id be glad to keep my distance.

Ayoko rin daw ng challenges. I mean I like to be challenged but when I see failure I easily give up… and I think that it is somehow true in the mind. Hindi ko naman kasi pinapakita na hindi ko kaya eh, pero deep inside there are times that I get insecured, feeling ko incapable ako… pero kung un lang kaya naman yang iovercome eh… diba??!! I believe that we all have our own weaknesses and fears, it’s but normal and inevitable but you can surely grow over it.

Lastly she told me that I have great power in the mind. Im more logical than physical. Yeah, it’s true kaya although active ako hiindi naman ako the sporty type of person. Sabi niya if I would succeed in life it would be through my logic. Kasi magaling daw akong magstrategize, (uuuyyyy…) however that power seems to be running on my weak side right now, kaya dapat daw mag-aral ako ng mabuti and don’t let myself falter away from my goals kasi siguro un ung mga nagddrive sa akin to keep pushing forward.

I have made a lot of realizations from this past-life / fortune-telling experience. Gusto ko matry ulit!! Sana ill be strong enough to counter her negative predictions. Sabi nga nila it’s not in the cards but in how you play the game. What my destiny will come to be, it’s all up to me and how I make decisions for the simple things I do. Oh God, give me the courage to change the things I can. After this life, ano kaya ako? Sana ung future Micha masabi niya na, “WOW!! Ganito pala ako noon!!” sana the future me will be proud of me and would continue to reach new heights… nggghhhh… hehe…

bakit ba baby si micha???

tumatanda yata ako ng paurong…

when i tried to look back in my highschool years… i realized that i was never a baby, THEN… pero bakit ngayong college nako masyado yata akong childish… or is it because i was the most matured among "the babies" kaya hindi ko naisip or nafeel man lang na baby ako until i was in college… sa bagay, these people are allowed to do things i am most prohibited of doing… kakainggit…

siguro it’s not really in the way i see myself but in the way i project myself to them… do i need a new hairstyle? a less laughing attitude? a more serious look? a less childish way of talking? what makes me a baby in the eyes of other people? hindi ko talaga mafigure-out…

it’s true!! "it’s not a bad thing neither is it a very very good thing"… but my point is i want to overcome it soon… sana i could grow up faster than i could… the thought of being "baby in everybody else’s eyes" scares me the most!! ewan ko… gusto ko kasing parati lang akong masaya kasi i feel burdened when i am not my "bouncy" self. im scared that i might not be able to have the chance to prove myself capable of doing things… kasi iisipin nila im childish… therefore, i won’t be entrusted with responsibilities… sabihin na nating i should learn by having an initiative to exert my own effort na lang pero iba kasi ung may hawak kang responsibility because you feel the gladness and pressures of ownership and the sweet fulfillments of these responsibilities. iniisip ko rin, if "ill be a baby" i might never have the opportunity to grow up and grow over "it"… hay… that’s probably the biggest challenge ill have to face in my whole growing up years. sana dumating na agad ung time when people will see that MICHA IS A BABY NO MORE!!! it’s not offensive but it hurts. .bad.

just pulled this survey off archie’s page… try natin!!

1. Song playing at the moment? >>> color of love -south border, dko sur ung title

2. One reason for living? >>> two na lang…dreams & death

3. Do u think you’re ok? >>> never better, I think so, as of now.

4. Ever donated blood? >>> yes!! Sept. 29, CBA 4^th fflr. Back lobby!! First time!!

5. Fav color(s)? >>> pomelo pink, mix of rainbow colors, bright blue

6. Accessories you usually wear? >>> bracelet, watch, earrings, belt, hair accessories

7. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past? >>> never really had a heartbreak coz im still waiting for that someone who will break it. Cguro ano na lang… wherever you are-southborder

8. Last place you went to? >>> it’s Sunday today so I went to church

9. Last person u went out with? >>> family

10. The most exciting sport? >>> basketball

11. Ever had a baby? >>> a baby brother? A baby sister? A baby neighbor? A baby friend? A baby cousin? …yes. A baby. A baby? no way, not now!!!

12. Movie u want 2 watch? >>> a beautiful boxer

13. Any piercings? >>> ear piercing

14.The most romantic gift? >>> a collage of my photos that ive never seen before or a collection of the things ive taken for granted but actually meant a lot for that person. Basta something that would make me realize how special I am for that person/s, that he/she/they were thinking of me.

15. Act on stage before? >>> yup!! Spoofed my math teacher, did the role of a general in Noli Me Tangere, played Oliver Twist, Challenge Night. I want to act on stage, I may not be the best but I love doing it and being there.

16. Struck by lightning before? >>> anong tanong yan?!! do you think I would still be alive? Burn.

17. Danced with your loved one before? >>> nah, cguro once nung tinuturuan ako ni papa mag-cha-cha… or nung baby pa ako… ay hindi!! Oo pala, pwede n rin ung iniisip ko.

18. Ever wished you could turn back time? to when? >>> definitely… I spend my lonely hours dwelling in the past. When? Cguro on the day I spilled my own beans.

19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be someone from the opposite sex? >>> Scream!! Stare!! Worry then go out to the world and explore life in the mindset of a boy. Court a girl. Pee in the MMDA urinal. Play basketball the way it should be played. Take my shirt off. Stay super late at night or even have an overnight stay with my friends. Have a boys night out. Have a photo shoot in my girly clothes and look like a gay person.

20. One song that’s meaningful to you? >>> WEAK. I think there’s a song that’s a lot better than that kaso dko lang maalala.

21. Last person you met for the first time? >>> that stranger who just walked passed me.

22. What will you be doing tomorrow? >>> school.

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank? >>> sure!! Who wouldn’t?!

24. One thing you totally regret doing/done? >>> spoiling my own secret.

25. Do people like you? >>> they say I’m a nice person.

26. What was the last game you played on the computer? >>> Counterstrike or Noxx or SIMS… can’t remember.

27. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment? >>> someone.

28. The color of your mobile phone? >>> grey/silver

29. Do you hate someone at the moment? >>> yeah, everyone does. I hate the cats that mess with our garbage. I hate the one who makes me go crazy. I hate the one whom everyone else hates. I have my own dislikes, but I don’t take grudge against other people.

30. What do you wish to happen now? >>> get things done and have them just the way I like them to be.